I Had a Talk

Today, I watched a video on youtube that really hurt me but also opened my eyes to a lot of things. Just to summarize, a few strangers met and discussed their biggest insecurities with each other. The way they did it was very unique, though. Each person wrote a letter to themselves from the point of view of their worst critic or thoughts. It sounds unusual, but if you watch it, you'll see how powerful it was. Click here to watch it.

Anyway, I decided to do the exercise. I didn't have a stranger to do it with, so I did it by myself, as I do everything (awkwardly laughs and holds back tears). Attached is a photo of what I wrote. I'm not gonna lie, it made me cry reading it back to myself. It hurts me every day when I say all these things to myself, but to actually be able to see it and know that it's my own brain saying these things, hurts in a new way. Please feel free to read what I wrote, but please know that I am fine. I'm really just sharing this in the hopes that it will reach someone who thinks they are alone. You are not alone. And you are not the only one who has to go to battle with yourself every day. I honestly blacked out while writing this. I don't even remember consciously writing some of this stuff, which made it even harder to read. I refrained from writing more than this page, though, because I don't want to give that 'side' of me too much space in my journal. I'm trying to give my genuine, happy side more room to shine in my writings. Anyway, enough of this. I hope you can find peace in knowing that you are loved and appreciated and that you don't have to fight this fight alone. I love y'all.